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© 1990-2005 Rolf Reinhold
Created at 98/04/14
"Whatever you do it's your
decision, ... always!"
About Rolf Reinhold
he about himself telling some little stories
In contradiction to his time
... but with decreasing distance.
The clear sight of bare
processes how you can watch with little children in former times were less
possible than today. Rituals and forms as pure form are disappearing more
and more out of our social life in favour of more direct and more emotional
Born in Hamburg, Germany in 1945, my first
hard experience (before school!) was a one year long stay in hospital from
my 5th to 6th year because of tuberculosis. It was as I think my first
possibility for meditations, as I had to lay hours and hours in the garden
of the hospital high above the river Elbe fixed with wool blankets, alone
with the environmental nature and the huge and small ships on the river.
In primary school I had no real problems,
except my perpetual "looking out of the window". But that seems not to
have been my problem, more that of my female teacher, who I had the first
four years of my school life. She often asked me something, when I was
looking out of the window, so she said once to my mother who much later
told this story to me. And, so the story goes, she always got the fitting
answer, I never was as absent as I seemed to be.
Two years ago on a Christmas evening I
suddenly remebered a small event and told it to my family. When I was about
between six and seven years old I stood in the second floor of our stairwell
in Hamburg and was looking down to some people on the sidewalk. Short time
before someone must have told to me that the earth is like a ball. And
suddenly these - really not very small people down there - inspired me
to think about an apple with ants on it. I thought that those ants on the
apple were not able to see me as a living being like them as Iwere too
huge for them. And perhaps thus we: Too small to see the huge beings who
were looking down to us ants on our apple earth. So now for me I had an
answer on the question what is outside there and I had got rid of all these
boring questions other children had to get clear with. I believe that up
to this evening I never had told about it, never thought again about these
questions as I was satisfied with this "may be ...".
Why do I tell you these stories?
Some decades later I began a research
for those differences in my life, which had brought me to this kind of
deep thinking about all these little things in life, which for others are
only banalities or platitudes, not worth to think about. Later on for my
great joy I found that Zen-Buddhism equally makes all the little things
of life to a center of awareness.
Another but for sure determinative origin
for deep thoughts was the behaviour of my mother who in contradiction to
her social environment never punished her children, never talked about
things like guilt or punishment by any higher might. In the center of her
education was the attitude to
solve problems together and always talked
to her children about the connection between humans and things, actions
and their origins. For her nothing in life was absdolute and isn't up today.
"Everything is relative" I often heard her say to us.
Now you perhaps can understand that my
attitudes (that what others can't see) were rather different and brought
often confrontations to me which others never had in this way. But I think
that just these experiences were able to produce deep thoughts about the
little things of life.
So my time at highschool was hard in so
far as my kind of thinking about theories the teachers couldn't accept
at all. Because I thought and sometimes said: "All this is thought and
said by a human being! All knowledges are only thoughts of a human being
about something, and nobody knows if this is right and reality." Oh I can
tell it to you, teachers didn't like such thoughts. So I had to keep them
for me and changed highschool twice until I found teachers with a preference
for reflexions and deep thoughts on a private highschool.
Corresponding to my highest ideal I married
in 1967 and began to study educational sciences in 1969, the year of birth
of my first daughter (second daughter 1970, third 1972). While working
for my family in several different jobs (as, for instance, driver, registrar,
waiter, scrub-man, barkeeper, gardener, helper in nursery, clerk, seller,
educator in "kinderladen [german kindergarten self-managed by the parents]",
and some more) I gathered rich experience in working-life.
Besides this, I studied educational theory,
psychology, social-psychology, sociology, with the main points supervision,
leading of institutions, adult further education and further learning.
In addition to this, I created my own theory of thinking and learning.
In the beginning of the 80's I started
my first dissertation project, out of my practise of teaching adults, "Topographical
Teaching and Topological Learning (c)" and with a change of my point of
interest at the end of the 80's I started my dissertation project "Language
in Systemic Management", which both stayed unfinished until now.
Since 1977 after divorce I am living in
the countryside in a big rented farmhouse, nearly three hundred years old,
about sixty miles from Hamburg, green, silence and a big garden with many
old trees around.
From 1980 to the end of 1990 I was the
leader of a small "Adults-Teaching-Workshop" with the three parts joiner's
workshop, mason's workshop and machine builder's workshop, each leaded
by a master of this profession (by the way, I learned these professions
nearly as good as the learners, as I often worked as the absence- and vacation-substitue
of the masters).
Besides in these years I went on studying,
finding intellectual stimulation in some postgraduate seminars and as a
member in a special working-psychology PhD seminar at university. In the
last year of my employment at the workshop, I had there my normal work,
and afterwards, as a preparation for self- employment, I went to university
joining several different seminars. Everyday 120 miles, back home shortly
before midnight. Very good experience. (By the way, at this time I've had
no family and lived with no partner!)
From the end of 1990 I worked as a selfemployed
trainer, seminarmaker, consultant and coach.
I earned my money with "Open Seminars",
sellers seminars (with my personal concept of "selling as a cooperation
between partners"), consulting small firms, training and coaching.
As a boy I liked to read the german edition
of the "Reader's Digest" and especially the rubric "Human Beings As You
And Me" (retranslated). There I found one day a little story about an old
woman who was asked "What do you think about this ...?" and answered "How
shall I know what I think before I have heard what I will say!"
I never forgot this sentence and it became
very important for my own experience. Hearing my sentences in every kind
of communication again and again brought new understanding about my own
thoughts to me. EVERY discussion and each talk in this way is offering
me new thoughts.
Now you might imagine how welcome you
are with every kind of thoughts about all my written and verbal stuff!
Especially if you think all this stuff to be too hard to understand.
One time I was asked by an aggressive
member of a seminar what kind of expert I am. With a little smile nothing
else but "Expert for learning" happened to come out of my mouth. Seems
that I think so.
The smile was brought into my face by
the thought that I am often feeling like a fool, idiot or goofy with any
process of learning. Do you know that feeling?
This project "SystemBuilding By pepaccel©"
is a learning process for me, learning both writing in English and programming
quick html-pages ... and last but not least producing new thoughts.
And so each of my discussions, talks, seminars
and coachings is a process of learning for me as it might be for each other
Each of my seminars seems to me as a kind
of "entire work of art of all participants together as partners in learning".
Unique each of them and none like the others except the main topics.
In these seminars there is no plan restricting
creativity and there's only an ensemble of topics around the core
And there are all the members (me included)
with their specific emotionalities, feelings, personal experiences and
personalities, who in cooperation are creating this
"entire work of art".
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Last updated at 15 Jul 2005